Essure Procedure

After the birth of my daughter in March 2009 I decided on a permant birth control procedure. With the encouragement of my doctor I had the essure surgery that May of 2009. In September of that year I went to have the dye test to see if my tubes were blocked. After watching the tv screen of dye shooting into my tubes the doctor assured me I was sterile. Two months later I found out I was going to have a baby boy that June. Needless to say I was upset; how could this happen to me. My youngest child was six months old and I was not wanting another child. After many months of anger, tears, and fights with God I delivered my son. six weeks later I had my tubes removed and what turned out to be only part of the essure device. Over the next few years of suffering from severe pelvic pain, heavy bleeding, clots, irregular periods, and headaches I had a hysterectomy where they also removed the rest of the essure device. that was July of 2013. Two hours after surgery my throat began closing and a breathing tube was inserted. I was in ICU for three days before being moved to a regular room. I have lifted up many prayers and questions of why this has happened to me. if If think about it to much I get angry, sad, and cry. My main emotion is feeling betrayed.  I feel betrayed by my doctors, the essure company, and at times God. I have to ask daily for peace and understanding  regarding this whole ordeal. If I don’t I find myself full of sadness and depression. It’s like a dark hole that is hard to climb out of at times. I know aside form this situation I am blessed with a healthy child whon I love dearly,however it still hurts sometimes when I think about the stress and torment of my babies creation process.  Only someone that has gone through this can understand my pain/joy. I hope women will read my testimony and not choose essure as an option. I believe it should be removed from the market.